most people think he is just being a normal teen, thus i am over-reacting to how hard daily stuff is.
thing about head injuries
is you never really know
what to do...daily,
hourly,
weekly.
thing about teens...
you never know
what to do...daily,
hourly,
weekly.
it has been a year and a half since his classified mild traumatic brain injury, and since we let him play football (i know...you think we brought it on ourselves at this point) he was hurt again, so we have injury upon injury.
(upon injury...upon injury)
....his head....my heartache
....his heartache....
it's just big.
today as I tried to work with him on his eagle project he decided to go meet up with some friends, to skateboard....another un-safe sport that he engages in...mind you he is 17.5 years old...almost 18....and has a "mind" of his own.
I tried not to lose it....his Eagle project becoming mine to finish....(the paperwork is all that is left, he did the rest....a year ago.)
So as I patiently tried to explain that I needed him here with me to do the paperwork, it is NOT my project and really he should be doing it on his own, but I have been allowed to help him get the paperwork filled out, so that he can get it turned in and he can get credit for the work he did...sounds right, right!?
Wrong...! He says to me..."Mom, I don't even remember doing the Eagle Project".
more heartbreak.
"it was last Spring", i remind him.
"ya, well, there is a lot i don't remember."
i tell him I can show him the pictures.
he tells me, "not now". "can i just go, mom, please?"
i let him go.
and i cry inside.
will he ever remember.
i promise to be back with some of the happier moments, because yes, there are happy parts. i just needed to write this, here, in my closet, safe, while i cry...on the inside.
QUICK UPDATE: a happier moment!!!!....his Eagle Project was approved. Yay for people who will listen and understand. Now a few merit badge details, a Board of Review, and his Eagle has become an accomplishment! Yay Son!!!!
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