measuring my possibility

i m not making this blog very resourceful by my lack of post.

Anyhow, life is abounding by daily and I am making the most of every moment. Even those moments I curl up on the end of my bed for a mini nap/dream.

I love dreams. I learn a lot from the chaos that resides in my head.

Well, today I am still in my pjs. Three of four kids have made it to their post at school...the fourth, well, I am working on. Parenting is a puzzle and I still struggle to find the right pieces.

But I learned something today about the senses.

This week, really.

Tuesday I had a prompting to go immediately and get this son a donut.

Maple, his favorite.

This moment had a whole anterior story which still puzzles me. ...Mysterious ways.....in which He shows us that we are His, He knows our hearts and prompts our steps.

But the donut and the prompting followed awakened a sense in my son. He was up, showered, and out the door in less than 20! Without frustration, nagging, and anger! It was a miracle. And I witnessed it. After a year plus of head injury trauma, the simplest act of waking him and getting him to school....well, let me just note that we are almost third district juvenile court bound for truancy....so this, a tiny moment in which I felt remembered and saw an act of God in a small part of my morning...mattered.

Today B went to Bambury Cross and bought two maple bars, fresh and warm and wafting with aroma. I placed them on my sons bedside table. And again, he awakened, his senses empowered by something sweet, and an act of concern and thought, love, tenderly awakened him.

I have hope that he will continue to emerge. That we can learn together to enjoy and celebrate this new journey. This struggle... It is not what I wanted, but more than I hoped for. It is hard and wrenching and I feel like I am failing most of the time, but today I measure a small step forward. Something learned and a direction to try.

For a year I have been doing all the same things to push healing, my way. Maybe I need to try something's new! It's possible I might even learn, and grow. I measure...a moment....in a step.